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Sunday, April 24, 2011

Beyond the Limits of Easter

I must admit that I'm not a practicing Catholic for some years now but that doesn't make me an atheist or agnostic in any way. While I believe that there is nothing intrinsically wrong in doubting the existence of God, or as in atheism, going as far as denying God, I need a spiritual basis for my life or a meaning beyond material. Over the years, I come to appreciate the teachings given to humanity from various world religions coupled by philosophy and science.

If I could describe what my spiritual search has been about I would say that it was a search for meaning concerning the purpose of our lives and a concern of why we have to die. I had more personal preoccupations especially those concerning my impairment. It was painful to be told, as a boy, that I have somehow sinned to be lane, or be made to bear the responsibility of sainthood or the like. In the end of it all, I felt to be someone but never fully hunan. I clung to a positive image of myself but it was often a reaction to what others thought about who I was. Science, my other refuge, opened up a new world. Sadly, it was far from objective as it claimed. I was a defective human being who would never live the mythical 'normal' life but could only do that through medical intervention of the aggressive kind. In a sense, it was not that different than the pressure to pray more and be dipped into the water of Lourdes to get a miracle! Indeed, I felt betray by most things I read and had to undergo. I was simply a

But then did I had to believe the idea I was faulty? Did I have to accept to be virtual outcast from the society I lived? Did I have to remain apart from the world, but never part of it?

After all, 'belief' is such a personal thing. Especially when it concerns the core of your spirit. Indeed, I never chose to be a Catholic or a Maltese citizen for that matter. Even if I did benefit from both opportunities. However, I have decided that I need to find my own purpose and strive for a higher value unbound by geography, culture, ideology, religious, sex, impairment, race, etc. A space where I'm free to be and where I can ask and doubt without fear. A place that is not imposed upon me, predefined and predestined in some way. This location doesn't exist in the real world but it's where we may find our common link as human beings.

I might sound rather mystical in this post and I do. All the aspects of who we are I mention below remain important as they make us who we are and make our world an exciting planet. However, if we think that our belief is superior enough to come before human life and dignity, then it's not worth it.

This place I write about is within us. It cannot be enforce by law, sanctions and war (although these are require at times). Starting from myself, the discovery of this common connection must start from a \realization that the person next to me shares the sane want for happiness, a shared need for love and compassion and freedom from pain and needless suffering. I will leave you with a quote from the Dalai Lana, who remains an important influence on my life. it should leave you with plenty of food for thought to last a lifetime:

"If you want others to be happy, practice compassion;
If you want to be happy, practice compassion."
His Holiness the 14th Dalai Lama (1935- )