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Thursday, August 28, 2008

Terrible Twos?

This blog has survived another year! However, I don't think that it's time to celebrate that much. I remember starting off with energy and enthusiasm on August 28 of 2006 but the number of people visiting on here has been decreasing steadily since then. At least, that's what the ratings indicate. Am I losing my magical touch? Anyhow, the fact is that there have been many changes in my life which could have impacted on the time and energy I spent on this blog. Not to mention the fact that I also set up a new blog at Cosmos Online... which seemed so easy at first! But ...

But these two years weren't all that bad. I got my much awaited degree. The one I started in 2006. Earlier this year I started working. But, on another level, I feel that this isn't enough. I keep asking myself what direction I should follow. And whether I've taken the right choices in life. I know that I want to improve on the current injustices in our world - especially where disabled people are concerned (but not only). That's for sure.

Yet, I wonder whether I'm doing enough. I'm spending most of my time at work writing reports on different areas concerning disabled people. The more I read, the more I feel guilty for not doing enough. Statistics which reveal disabled people's exclusion from education and employment. Or others which indicate the strong link between poverty and disability. They do make me feel powerless.

On the other hand, I know that I want to make a difference. But then, I think on the many things I need to do to better the quality of my own life. Both are important priorities to me. And, I believe, I cannot separate one from the other. However, it's wrong to assume that the issue of social inequality is particular to disabled people. For instance, as I come to ending the novel "The Kite Runner" by Khaled Hosseini, I was struck by how easy it's for people to harm each other because of ethnic or religious differences. How war robs people of identity and of dignity. How one wrong decision can affect the lives of many.

Of course, war is one factor that causes impairment. So, in Khaled's account, it's very common to meet children and adults who have acquired impairments through mines and other weapons of war. I cannot come to imagine how we can forget that the war in Afghanistan - in this case - and other wars can affect children and entire families or communities in devastating ways. It's easy to write patriotic sentiments in the comfort of our homes, but those who are easily drawn to war have no idea what a beastly thing they're unleashing on the world. I won't reveal any plots however. Read the book for that.

On the question of where I'm going, I also find that there's a kind of vacuum in terms of relating to other people. True, I get in touch with people at work everyday. I meet people during lectures and events. But apart from the fact it's mostly work, I have been active on online communities here and there. Lately, I have found Connecting Singles to be a good place to spend some time. It says 'free online dating' on the site, but I only got to the free online part so far... but that doesn't bother me much. I am a bit skeptical of online contact...

I think that should do for today. I hope to be able to write over the coming days. If I get a minute to breathe that is ... the heat is still high over here!