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Gordon's D-Zone Arcive (2006-2014)

Thursday, October 26, 2006


Almost a week has passed since I regained vision in my right eye. After recovering from the shock of watching my changed self in the mirror I now am slowly settling down in the world of the ‘sighted’. It’s surprising and unreal to find yourself back into a world that you once knew existed but being so far detached from.

It’s really like waking up from a long dream and realizing that you have got to start all over again. I admit that I have had times when I just close my eyes to do something because not only do I do it faster but also without much effort.

I can say that there are many things that I’m doing right now that I have missed doing. Such as looking at old photos and even watching some TV. And if you’re wondering, there were disappointments and surprises as I journey on this new life.

I am not sure whether this will last or not… perhaps I’m dreaming or something. Or perhaps I died? Seriously now, being able to see puts things into perspective.

For starters, it sets you thinking about the fragility of our existence. A single event, or shift in perspective can have enormous effects on our lives.

However, The greatest lesson I have learned so far is that much of the world that we take to be real has much to do with our own view of the world. I have stepped into a different reality, yes, but this reality has brought me more to understand who I am as a human being.

It’s not just a matter of appreciating the ‘gift’ of sight, but it’s really recognizing that our position in the world is often conditioned by what we deem to be a better or greater position. But is it really?

I know that I’m living in a body that is constantly changing. But the question remains nagging at the back of my mind, why is it so hard to adjust to this world of the ‘sighted’?

I was telling Charles, a blind friend of mine, how sometimes I need to shut out the dazzling world to do some things. Yes, that may be habit and a way to rest my eyes. But in truth it also means that seeing is not simply confined to the senses.

Nobody sees though his or her eyes really. I think that we experience reality through our eyes, but that’s not the whole picture. I could compare sight to a note on a musical staff, it may enrich some pieces, but it’s not the ultimate and only note to make a musical piece complete. For the reality is that what we have built, what I have built, is in the mind. And even if I can appreciate some forms of beauty now I missed before, there are different levels and conceptions of beauty. Different steps or ramps of perfection.


Peter Meijer said...

Beautiful and fascinating accounts of your experiences and thoughts, Gordon! I am particularly interested in your further experiences in "learning to see" (again), what currently remaining limitations are in recognizing some things, how you progress over time, and so on.


Peter Meijer

The vOICe

Lady Bracknell said...

Lady Bracknell is so very pleased to have encountered a member of the blogosphere who has fully grasped the social model of disability that she has instructed her editor to add a link to Gordon's blog at her earliest convenience.